I posted this writing on my social media this morning but I wanted to share it with you. What I am about to share is an
uncomfortable subject in the Black community. Why? Because we are always
looked at as strong because we have survived so much as a people. We
are human and we bear a lot of weight. We have to start talking.
In
the 10years since my aunt's passing, never have I posted this. Felt
strongly compelled to share today. My Aunt Jackie would've had a
birthday this month. But sadly, 10years ago she committed suicide. She
had received devastating news about her
health. She had many struggles and even sought the church to help rid
her of her personal thorns. I was on the East Coast Regional from Philly
to Baltimore as I would normally be on a Thursday. That day, I suddenly
got this feeling in the Spirit that something was wrong with one of the
sisters of my last living Grandma. I called my Mom to inquire. My Mom
made a call. She then called me back with her number. I called to check.
My aunt said she had been worried about Aunt Jackie because Aunt Jackie
had seemed so distraught. She repeatedly said she was going to kill
herself. My Aunt said she told her to stop saying it and that she didn't
mean it. Well then she hadn't heard from Aunt Jackie in a week and was
worried. She sent Aunt Jackie's only daughter to check on her. When my
baby cousin arrived, she found her Mom dead. She had been dead an entire
week. She did what she said. We had 2 funerals in 30 days. We buried
another aunt, a sister to my Great Grandma less than 30 days prior due
to illness. My now late Cousin Connie, shipped her Mom back to PA for us
to memorialize her October 2007. Just like that, we had a second
funeral. 😢
My point, when someone isn't doing well, DO NOT take for granted that
they will be okay. Their comments to you may be the only cry for help
they give. I felt Aunt Jackie this morning. My program for her memorial
is buried in a box around here but I know this is a prompting for
someone to see and hear. Love you Aunt Jackie!!!
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