Psalm 27:1
And
then I saw it! Before I could blink to get a clear visual of everyone I
heard, I saw the barrel of a 9mm hand gun pressed to my forehead. That
split second seemed to last eternity. On the opposite side of the 9mm
handgun was a White police officer. He said nothing. He simply looked
like he had an adrenaline rush and I was going to be the unfortunate
recipient of his adrenaline. I was afraid to move or speak so I stood
still only looking at his eyes. I knew if I did, it would be too late
and someone would be calling or visiting my mother at work to say her
child was shot point blank. I had walked into the middle of preparations
for a drug raid. The culprits were a young white couple in the
building. I went to school with the female's sister. There were no
barriers to separate the public from the police. They were attacking all
entrances of the building. It took a minute for him to realize I was
not part of the raid, nor someone they were after. When he lowered his
weapon and motioned his head for me to go. I ran!! I ran so fast and
refused to stop until I was inside the home. My nerves were bad and my
hands were shaking. When I sat down to eat I could barely hold the
bottle of soda in my hand. I was experiencing anxiety. The real anxiety
that at thirteen years old, I was one second away from being shot by a
police officer. I had no weapons, I was not a drug dealer, user or
anything. I was simply an African-American teenager getting home.
What
Roland Martin said was real to me last week. I do understand. I do not
hate the police. They have a job to do. Many of my family members have
served this country in uniform. But it does not take away the fear that
is as real as the air you and I breathe. Just because you can't see it,
doesn't mean it is not real. Praying for safety and protection of
children is a must. Police officers understanding cultural differences
in an effort to protect and serve is a must. I will NEVER forget that
day! It was real and anyone who EVER says that it isn't doesn't know
what it means to experience it. Read the book "Black Like Me" by John
Howard Griffin. As a White man he transformed himself to become a Black
man in the south during segregation. He had a taste of what life was
like for an African-American.